30 DoP - Day 16

I’m over the hump!! My 30 day challenge (now 30 post challenge because timing is apparently harder than I thought) is now halfway complete and it feels great!! This may be the coffee and black tea speaking, but I feel so good about this! As I mentioned in earlier posts, commitment and follow through are two of my biggest bugaboos in this lifetime, and I am DONE with being held back by this unfulfilling habit. When I look into the ‘why’ of it all, I hold myself back because I don’t feel like I don’t have anything of value to offer. THIS is the biggest bugaboo of them all, because I do have something to offer, something invaluable that cannot have a price or measure put on it. I am now willing to receive the bounty that my soul has to offer and make happen what is in the core of me that has been trying to be expressed for decades. Everyone is being challenged right now, and everyone is waking up at their own speed. I am very aware of the challenges that I am facing, and I realized that if I apply myself to this one task, it will make a world of difference to that sad little girl deep in me who was repeatedly shown that she didn’t matter and neither did her dreams. I started doing burlesque because there was a firehose of energy rocketing out of me anytime I came close to it. The first time I ever performed, I walked home in a light-filled daze and could barely sleep that night, because I knew that I had found something huge for me. Burlesque lit me up like the Rockefeller Center Christmas tree, and now, 12 years later, I have the same light, the same passion, but the focus has shifted slightly. Burlesque is still very much a part of it, but it feels more like a vehicle of consciousness that is transporting me deeper into myself and further along my soul’s journey in this body. Where it goes, well, I guess I’ll see when I get there, but for now what matters is the here and the now. I’m doing this for me, and that’s worth its weight in gold. I can only imagine what the next 14 posts will hold - !

Today’s prayer prompt is, as ever totally perfectly, It's Happening Now 

There is only one force in the Universe, and that force is Love.

This Love can create everything and do anything, and that means that I too can create and do anything I wish.

It’s all happening now. The Love, its transmission, existence and grace. It’s all here. Right here, right now. I say yes to it, and receive its presence with joy in my heart.

I am experiencing this Love and the joy and peace that comes with it right now, in this very moment.

I am profoundly grateful from the core center of my heart, and I offer my gratitude to the Universe for the Love that I feel and am experiencing.

This acknowledgment and acceptance allows me to release my fear and trust life, fully supported by the Universe

So be it.